FAREWELL

Behind the smiling faces
Behind the happy mood,
Deep somewhere inside
Grumbling pain stood.

Though they were laughing
Eyes were full of tears,
Four years they spend together
Were still in their heart crystal clear.

I could feel the fear
They were all facing,
The fear of losing each other
And quickly time racing.

It was time for them to leave
Each other and fly high,
I could still hear
grief and their sigh .

Then it came upon me
Soon I will be in their place,
Soon I will be leaving my friends
And my life will be a mess.

Suddenly I got up and thought
Its now or never,
Just two years are remaining enjoy it like
Memories will remain forever.

And then I heard my friends call
I saw their faces bright,
Then I came to know
In my life they are a ray of light.

I can’t imagine a day
Without those creatures,
Whom I call my friends
They are my life’s best features.

What ' WE ' Need?

Tear they shed ,
Cry they made ,
Each second spend ,
In search of shed

Hands they lay
On food we call stale
Believing it heaven
What actually is hell

No aim no love
No choice, no passion
To live one more day
Is their only mission

To fight for their right
Don’t have sword
But they have excess
Faith in GOD

Their prayers are unheard
Many dues unpaid
We value a stone but not
The blood they shed

For them each day
Is a new struggle
But for us each day
We buy new goggle(s)

They fight each second
For their dear life
They live each day
As balancing a knife

Sparse are the opportunities to study
As night is dark their future
But even we get a chance
We tend to bunk the lectures

They have dream
But no way to fulfill
We have every thing
But no dreams n strong will

Sometimes I think why I am on side ‘WE’
I should have been on side ‘THEY’
Then I would have understood
In better mode life’s way

High Time

May be some of u may think that this article is written quite late…….I mean I am actually penning my thoughts on this topic so late. But there is one reason. I was so shocked and confused. I was so much in pain and sorrow. It was too difficult for me to understand what was going on?

Till now u must have understood that I am talking about the Mumbai massacre. But it’s just not the Mumbai that has suffered….the whole Nation is facing a new problem….. Even the political leaders are sufferers…..ya, many of them had to resign.
The fact is that whatever happened to Mumbai for 3 days has shaken the base of our own India. We Indians who were proud of our country, of our political structure, of our democracy, of our political leaders, of our politics are now in great dilemma. We all Indians are now questioning ourselves what is happening. Who is responsible for all this. So many innocent people who were killed, who is culprit behind this?

Ya of course the terrorist are the ones who killed these many people. But terrorist are the final outcome. I am talking about the input - means how on the earth these terrorist were able to step on Indian soil. How they were not spotted by our coastguards. Why our intelligence agency failed to have any pre idea about it?

From last 2-3 days on each news channel ,people are shown accusing political leaders. Even R.R Patil and Vilasrao Deshmukh has given resignation. One question that is troubling me is Why we are asking for the resignation of these leaders?. Whether we want something or other to be done after such horrible incidence just to satisfy our feeling that we have done something or we actually have woken up from our deep sleep.

Whole India was shattered by this incidence. I still cant forget how the bodies were removed from Taj, which was shone in NEWS. I can’t even imagine the state of people who have lost their near ones. The picture of Major Unnikrishnan’s mother crying near her young son’s body is still fresh in my mind. The sound of shooting and granite bombs is still prevailing in my ears. We all are feeling this pain………we all are feeling that we need to do something……but what. Just by asking resignation of few leaders is going to solve this grave problem. Is this the answer to our many question.

No…this not gonna help us. One or two people are not responsible…whole system is faulty. Like, how these terrorist came from Gujrat to Mumbai unnoticed? How these terrorist escaped the coastguards?. Now here coastguards are not fully equipped. Who is responsible for this? How they entered Hotel Taj with all arms n ammunitions? These terrorist were knowing each and every corner of Taj and Oberoy as they were shown videos of them. This means that someone must have shooted that video. There must be some local help. There are so may questions and that much problem . Still now we never gave a thought to it. There were so many warnings but we ignored it. And now we are saying terrorism is a big problem and we are blaming each other. U know what is the main problem...........we ourselves are.....we get ignited when ever such incidence happens....then after some days we tend to forget it.....each time we realize n then we forget....what we need is to keep ourselves charge up....forever.....then only something can happen. Now it’s a high time. If now we forget then may be next time we will not get even this chance to blame each other.

Holidays

I never thought holidays can be so boring and irritating. Yes, The holidays……..holidays for which we starting planning before exam ………holidays for which we wait eagerly.

You must be thinking that this type of rubbish only an insane person can write, but believe me sometime holidays can be boring. Especially when only you are having holidays while all your family members don’t have. Just like in my case, my college decided to give us this time one and half month holidays. And now my problem is that my mom and dad are busy with their college and my sister is engrossed in her school studies. So I am left with nothing.

Actually my problem is not THE HOLIDAYs but the fact that others don’t have holidays along with me. Now many questions must have aroused in your mind like what is the relation between my holidays and others. So let me explain with example.

As I get up early in the morning, let me tell you for me ,now, morning means at 9 am, first thing I hear is my mom. Very nicely and tactfully she asks me,” beta can you do some cooking for me, I am getting late for my lectures. Please beta.” And before my answer her reason why I should do cooking is ready. “ Beta please, also you don’t have any work to do. So just help your mom in your holidays.” Was there any need of telling me that I am idle? Then comes my sister. As soon as she returns from her tuitions, in her tired voice only few words are audible, “ tai please ple…… iron my tunic yaar..ple…ple…. You don’t have any work. Look at you , you are just sitting and eating apple. Can’t you do this simple work for your little tired sis.” Now this is called solid emotional blackmailing. Someone should learn from my sis. Then as I sit on my computer, my dad’s entry is must. The first thing that is visible to me is heap of CDs in his hands .Now it’s my dad’s turn , “Avii, if you have time, I mean if you can take out time from orkut and net for your dad then please sort out these few CDs. Make a list of what each CD contains.” Don’t go on the word ‘few’. Here few is used for 20-25 Cds.

These are just few examples of how I am made to remember that I am idle and others are busy. I don’t deny , even others don’t deny that I am busy through out day with my books n novels, with my blog and orkut. But then most important thing which puts me in idle category is that I am not going to college and hence I am an idle.

You must be thinking what a grumbling person I am? But, ‘post abhi baki hai mere dost’.While doing all these things I started enjoying my holidays in small small packages. This credit goes to my dad. After telling me some or the other work he never forgot to boost up me by saying , ”Come-on avii. Don’t bring that expression on face. Enjoy whatever you are doing. Do it like no one can do it better than u, even if it is ironing your sister’s tunic.” Well now that I have started enjoying my small duties, holidays have become more compatible. And of course by ironing my sis’s tunic and doing some more things for her like taking her to tuitions on my kinetic and picking her from her tuitions, listening to her school review every day, has brought both of us more closer.

My Questions

“What rubbish is this? How can they….how can it happen? Oh shut mann…how we are going to prepare??????????????”, these and many such questions occurred in my mind when I heard that our beloved, favorite and adorable(hope you got the sarcasm) Nagpur University had decided that 3rd and 7th sem exams will be before Diwali and that to only one day gap will be given between each paper.

Doesn’t that sound something disastrous…….something horrible……..if not, just ask 3rd and 7th sem students or those ‘to be’ engineers who had faced this exam. There condition was just like a fighter who is told that he will have to fight his strongest enemy without any arms n ammunition. Oh God!. Me and my friends, we all thought that Nagpur university, (not the building, ………..but people working under it’s roof) had lost it’s brain………ohh sorry this part it never had………….lost it’s senses. All seniors from our college and many others protested in front of Nagpur university building. But no use.
Our pleadings, our demands, our future(as it depended on this exam’s result) had no effect on those people who were more interested in giving more and good Diwali holidays to their non-teaching staff and hence decided to spoil student’s holidays and even result by conducting exam before Diwali. So now only way for us was to appear for exam and pass.

Now just think of a student who has done nothing during whole term as that student is completely dependant on those 5-6 days that he will be getting before each exam paper for preparation. What will be his condition after knowing about Nagpur University’s Diwali Gift. What will be his plan or strategy to pass this one day interval exam……….to get as much internals i.e. out of 20 and get on paper at least that much marks that will make total of paper >=40. This time I was in this same category.

Say it my overconfidence, or I took whole thing very lightly or the fact that my leg got fractured and was in plaster for more than a month, but this time I was not prepared at all. And my low score in sessionals had already lowered my confidence. My first year 78.3% was still alive in my mind. I really wanted to make it above 80% in this term but now the situation was that I was literally planning to just somehow pass in each paper and avoid any backs.

And now as I am writing this article after my last paper and I can tell you that this one day gap exam was not an easy task and to make it more difficult Nagpur University won our hearts by presenting us toughest paper of each subject.( Let me tell you that this is not just my opinion but many other scholar student’s opinion is also considered in it ). So no prize for guessing that my answer sheets contain most amazing answers and examiner will be pleased to check them as he will not be required to put many efforts and brain and they will be less time consuming. And not to mention most of the time he will just be require to put ‘0’ on my answers sheet. Truth apart, this examination has changed my thinking a lot. Now many new and interesting questions have arrived in my mind.

If some how I manage to clear all subjects , what knowledge I had earn from this 3rd sem. My knowledge or depth of 3rd sem is limited unto the QUESTIONS given in VBD or Questions that are repeatedly asked in exam (from 3-4 previous year papers).Whether this knowledge is going to help me in my future, in becoming a good engineer or somehow I will also manage like all others have done or still are doing. Has this examination made me learn something knowledgeable or just taught me how to study for getting just passing marks. Has this exam sharpened my intellect or has sharpened my skill of how to cheat.(Let me tell you that I am against of cheating because I don’t have that much guts but I have seen many of them cheating). So friends I am really confused that why I have given this exam. …………….just as a formality……….or just because my friends were also involved in this mass activity. Why ..Why I wasted each one day before exam in searching the repetitive questions and mugging them. Why I wasted so many university’s papers in writing irrelevant answers.

Well I thing I will require some time for finding answers to these questions or I will be able to answer them myself after getting my degree.

Forgotten desires

To wake up early, work and study,
Is this only the life?
It is just like on head
Balancing a knife.

Hectic schedules, boring routines
Had killed our emotions,
Somewhere we loose ourselves
These are the words of caution.

Sometimes we want to break the cage
And come out of the womb,
We want to enjoy life
Before sleeping in tomb.

We want to take some adventures
Enjoy some new ventures
Want to dance in rain
And bunk the lectures.

We want to laugh aloud
And play with friends a lot,
We get irritated by laptop
And want to catch a maggot.

Then we decide to live life.,
N on tension put a cross,
But suddenly we realized
And in some assignment we get engross.

These thoughts came n went
Decided n then forgot,
And life comes to an end
And we miss these enjoyments a lot.

But then no use
Because it’s a lost time,
This is a harsh truth
And not just a rhyme.

- Avanti

Live in present!

Live in present!

Just ask yourself one question. How much time or how many minutes or seconds you can concentrate while studying or reading? Answer it honestly.
What’s your answer?
30minutes
20
10
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When this question was asked to the students of IIT Mumbai, Mechanical branch, the answer was 2 to 5 seconds.
Isn’t it astonishing? Yes, but that’s the truth.
Even when we are reading or lets say (frankly) our eyes are on the letters or alphabets but our mind is somewhere else. And this happens with every body, with everyone.

That’s what Rashmit Bhaiyya (our guru at art of living workshop) told us. He said our mind is never stable. It is very unstable and it loves to wonder from present to past and to future. It never remains or stays in future. And that’s what creates lot of problem.
Just take example of us during our exam. When we realize that next day we have our exam, we all can imagine our condition. Right? Well then we weight the book and mere weight of the book kill our hope. Then we count the pages and looking at 3-digit number page numbers all the remaining hopes vanish. Then some how we gather courage to start reading the book. The fact that it’s too late to start study click to us and then time travel of our mind starts. First our mind travels to past and then we remember all the exams that we have given till now. And then we realize that every time we made the same mistake of doing the study just one day before the exam. An then every time we decide that from next time we will not repeat this and we will study from starting. But then we never ever followed it.
Then our mind travels to Future and then we decide that from next time anyhow we are gonna study from starting.
Then our mind starts imagining things of future and we hope that something should happen.................something ..........anything that will postpone the exam. Small earthquake, or small riots, of there should be ‘Bund’.
But in thinking all this, we forget to study and when few hours are remaining for paper we realize that nothing gonna happen, we will be required to give that damm paper. And we regret that we wasted time in thinking about past and future. If we have used that time for studying, i.e for present, things would have been different.

That’s what happens with us. It’s human tendency to bother about past and future and to forget about present. We waste our time, precious time in thinking about past and future.
That’s why someone has rightly said-
“ Past is the bounce check,
Future is the check that has no guarantee,
But only present is the cash that we have”
So live in present. Make it beautiful.