Lifeless death !!

Its been ages ,I have been dead,
Dried like the lost river bed,
Without its blue water searching its goal,
I was wandering without my soul,

Emotions that were buried deep down, Hunger and thirst which cannot be quenched,

Love which I lost long back,
In guilt and remorse I am drenched.

Like the aimless kite in the sky,
Whose only destiny is to kiss the ground,
My life has become aimless , passionless,
Peace that I m searching never found.

Like a lifeless tree without leaves,
Knowing its destiny that it never going to be,
As green as it was ,
I see a in it a reflection of me.

I still have remembrance of few dreams,
Blurred as they come and go,
Soon I will forget them alll
Like shattered glass pieces
After a blow.

Is there no end to this ?
Is the only ques my heart asks,
Like lost in infinity
My mind wriggle like a fish in waterless flask,
Dreaming of the sea that  fish reaches its end,
But my journey continues with more and more perilous bends.

Sweet Misunderstanding

I saw you through  the glass window,
There you were looking at me
The smile on your lips that kills
The spark in your eyes I feel
First time I felt something
As if my feelings have got new wings

You in your faded jeans and blue shirt
With those messed up hair
Holding my favourite writer in one hand
Other in pocket with headphones in ear
You were standing alone and that was so unfair

Yellow I hated
Till I saw you in those slippers
And I realised that you were still smiling
May be you were thinking same for me
May be you were feeling same for me
That glass window was transformed into some sacred relic
Then suddenly you were dialling

How can you lose such a precious moment to a cell phone
How can you return from ‘first site love’ zone
How can you turn you back to the window
How can you hold her hand
All the magic vanished , as if some one broke my magic wand

She was in red with her curly locks
Wearing skirt , your view she blocked
And there you were
Laughing together, smiling and chatting,
And here I was ,against the glass, the crude reality watching

Then you moved more close to the glass , stared at me through  it
and then you got a comb and tried to settle you hair a bit
so dawned upon me the realisation
that my sacred relic was a mirror for you,
I was invisible, you were monitoring your own reflection
Whatever I was  thinking, it was just my fairy  tale imagination

Then I smiled at you as well,
Through the same glass
This is how my ‘first sight love’ fever passed
But still I go to the same shop
Thinking some day you might show up,
And smile at your own reflection,
I would see you through the glass
And again I will visit my world of fairy tale imagination.

When i look back

I have reached a point, where when i stop and back i look,
i see all those years passed by
i see all those faces- frowning ,smiling ,crying
some tears saying bye, some saying hie

 I feel all warmth received
the warmth that keeps me alive in life's chilling path
the joy few have shared helps me
 bear life's wrath

 My heart keeps telling me
lets revisit those turns again, but i know i cant
Once left behind turns,
i cant visit now Even if i want

 My heart says lets take them
 with us together and forever 
But then i cant see them
Their heart has taken them else somewhere

 The hearts that i treasured
 are no longer with me ,
 Some left, some took turn different,
 some stood back, some disappeared,
 some hided while some surpassed me with glee

 And i am left alone But still i smile
 as they all told me to do so
 Because each moment of life teaches us
 People come and go You just need to go with the life's FLOW.

The lost battle

Broken shield and broken spear
Lays in my hand
I don’t have power in me
To rise again and stand
Bruises and cuts have pierced me
And path back home i cannot see
The battle has taken away all
Failure has taken on me a a toll
Once my eyes full of pride
Now searching for the ride
Ride back home Where i will find shelter
With my loved once around
They will heal my bruises and cut with their love and care
My soul and their love is bound
They will make me rise
They will make me stand
They will make me again
just like magic wand
And then they will hand me new shield and spear
They will blow new life in me Just to say good bye with tears
So i can get to battle again
& Snatch my lost pride
Live my dreams again
And get home winner’s ride

memory lane

memories stored in my mind..
popped up just like film rewind...
each face clear in the eye
just like sparkling stars in the sky
and ...and ..and...
and i remember you ,
and i remember her,
and i remember him...
and i remember they
and my heart says
i am lost in the memory lane.............
i tried hard to forget
but my efforts gone in vain.....

everything i remember...the class the teachers the bench
remember every winter...remember the rain in which we drench
i remember the canteen where we collected money like goons
then in a single plate we ate with fight of spoons
and now i order whole plate for me
but no ones to say “oye keep sumthing for me”
we used to fight that who will pay the bill
Now i am ready, please you just accompany me
i remember the shop for graphs and Xerox
sweet melody was the only chocolate box
and that melody reminds me now no one’s there to share ................IT
and in this crazy world without friends i don’t........................FIT
i am lost in the memory lane.............
i tried hard to forget
but my efforts gone in vain.....


Entire day was not enough for us
To gossip about the world
The names we gave to every one
The thoughts that we Swirled
But now we all go silent on phones
And then we ask howz life gong on
With serious voice and tones
Those days were such that i was one of you all
But now i feel like crushed pieces fall
i am lost in the memory lane.............
i tried hard to forget
but my efforts gone in vain.....


i remember those lectures were
each of us used to sleep
we used to pretend that we getting ever thing
but fact was our thoughts had jumped n taken big leap
we were wandering together in the dreams
and teacher’s alien language that in our mind barely creep
but now i am ready to attend the most loathed lecture
condition is that i want u all in this venture
i am lost in the memory lane.............
i tried hard to forget
but my efforts gone in vain.....

these 4 years they came n went
without realizing they left me alone
everything went away from me
i am left here to moan
But as they say things that start has to end
Life is never straight its full of bends
But whats is left with you
Is the memory lane!!!!!!!!

my b'day surprise

As I went home dishearten
Whole day no one wished from them
No calls from them for me
Was there on the morning to wake

And i parked my kinetic
And saw through doors
Some idiots were standing
All over the floor
There were candles
And a big cake

Yeh yeh they shouted “surprise”
It’s my prize for the friendship that we share
It’s my prize for the love that we all share
It’s my birthday surprise

Tears rolled my cheeks
I scolded them so much
I wanted to kick each one
And give all a big punch
Ribbons all over, balloons all over site
They had done this planning the last two nights
I felt so precious i felt so new
Such moments in life are so few

Yeh yeh they shouted “surprise”
It’s my prize for the friendship that we share
It’s my prize for the love that we all share
It’s my birthday surprise

Don’t know next time
I will get this
These people leaving me
I am gonna miss
And then i will have no choice
I will have to just hear their voice
No more b’day surprise
But this time it was so nice

I hope next time the distance doesn’t make them forget
I hope next time i don’t have to satisfy myself just with memories of how we met
The memories of how we had fun
The memories of how for bunk we used to run
The birthday bumps, the birthday gifts
The memories of the time pass drifts

We will then rarely meet
With the restrictions and ready to fleet
With work we will get busy
And then for each other we will give excuses that “can’t meet i am feeling dizzy”
And no guarantee of birthday surprise
So let me enjoy it the fullest
It’s my prize!!!

to be alive............

She is in last stage of cancer, battling with God for few seconds so that she can tell him how important he is in her life and want to say bye to him…..

For me I don’t want you to shed tears,
I want you to overcome all your fears,
I want you to be for me strong,
I want you to correct me when I am wrong,
Look in to my eyes and see for you, the desire
Hear my heart, your pain is burning me like fire

I am trapped in your love hive
I just need
I just need
I just need
YOUR LOVE
To be alive………

Time passing by very fast ,like sand
it’s slipping away from my hand,
But my soul be always be there for you,
Even though seconds remaining for my existence are few;

You will feel me even when I am gone
You will smell me when roses worn
You will see me in your dreams
I will flow in your blood like stream;

I am trapped in your love hive
I just need
I just need
I just need
YOUR LOVE
To be alive………

Happy and content I am closing my eyes
That I was part of you and will always be
Even while saying my byes;
I just ask one thing to my God,
Let me be part of him in every life , oh Lord!
We will be together forever and ever and ever
Say bye to me with happy memories of ours

I am trapped in your love hive
I just need...............................

and then there is long silence where only one heart beat can be heard!!!!
He standstill, speechless, emotionless, he wnts to cry like child, fight with god for takng away what he loved most but fails to express anything….
Only sound his lips make…..

You will always be in my heart
You will always be my part
Life or death can never tear us apart,
Our love is boundless, limitless, timeless
I will again marry you in next life, be ready in your white dress,
I am trapped in your love hive
I just need
I just need
I just need
YOUR LOVELY MEMORIES
To be alive………